1/9/2010 i feel very blessed

i've got alot of thots and i feel very blessed


-i feel very lucky tat im in this industry.
it allows me to know wat r the different types of protection and wat kind of protection is important.
thus i insured myself with very high coverage and get a good hospital plan.
my premium is $7000/yr but im willing to pay for protection.
if im not in this industry, i'll definitely not insure myself so much cos i'll not see the importance of it.
or rather i wont be willing to depart $7000/yr jus to buy insurance.


-i recuperate in a very comfortable aircon single bedded room..
this is already way better than alot of patients. 


-a perfect job.. i love my job
i cant work for 3 mths, but im still getting my recurrent income.
i dun really need to apply leave.
i wont be burdened by my work.
i can still service client thru phone.
lucky i've hit my nxt yr yokohama target.
i still have dec,jan,feb to hit my US target


-lucky da gu refer me to doc lim teck chye
doc lim then refer me to doc Koh Cheng Huat for the surgery.
he is a bz bz gynea.
"C.h. Koh Clinic For Women
blk 183 Toa Payoh Central, #01-260 (S)310183 Tel: 62544022 "


his operating skill is very good. his PR skill so so.
nurses in Mt Alvernia say doc koh is a very experience surgeon.
Wertheim's hysterectomy is a major surgery and not all gynea in sg can do this kind of surgery.
so im blessed tat he's the one to do the surgery for me.
time taken to do my ops is faster with pte doc.
if i've stick with KKH, i guess my operation will not be so fast.


Doc koh also refer me to an experience oncology doc See Hui Ti
i think experienced doc is very important.
cos i can get specialised attention from 1 doc.


-i think my cancer stage is the "best deal".
my surgeon remove 57 lymph node, out of tat, only 1 lymph node got spread.

hence there's a need to do chemo/radio.
but its because if this 1 lymph node, my claim is approved.


since i've already removed my uterus and cannot give birth in future, a lump sum of $$ is really a peace of mind to me. this $$ allows me to plan for my old age since i wont have kids.
(i think alot.. like when im old, who will push me in wheelchair...
when im sick, who will acc me to see doc...
if either dear or me pass away 1st, we will lose each other's companionship, will i be lonely...
nursing care n old folks home will be expensive in future, as long as i have $, at least i can still admit into homes etc...)


imagine IF theres no spread of cancer = no need do chemo, but CANNOT claim the lump sum... i think its not worth it.. cos i already remove my whole uterus = no kids, no $$.. i think i'll be more more sad.


to be able to claim critical illness, must be maglinant + SPREADing of cancer cell.
and lucky only spread to ONE lymth node.
at least its a milder spread.


-im fortunate tat dear is also in this industry.
at least his hrs is flexible such tat he can bring me to chemo/see doc.
esp during the coming radiotherapy wks..
its 7 wks of everyday radio.
i dun think anyone can take half day off for 7 wks just to bring wife for treatment.

-i have very understanding in laws.
they dun mind i cant bear them grandchildren.
as long as im well, they r happy liao.
my mum-in-law cooks everyday for me, help me wash dishes n do hsework.


-linking all these pts..
i think tat im really very blessed even though i got cancer.


-everything happens for a reason. learn to appreciate.


-maybe b'cos of my cancer,
i will eat healthier in future,
i will exercise more in future,
i can share my experience with everyone so they can understand the importance of insurance,
i am definitely more convicted to make sure all my clients get all necessary protections
i dun hav to worry abt kids growing up problems...
i definitely cannot take it if my kids r seriously sick etc..
i pray more..
i know tat i've got a perfect husband, and he's one who will not forsake me when times r rough
i treasure & appreciates him more
im touched tat my aunts and uncles love me soooo much
i realise my dad still cares for me
and many more positive reasons..


I must be strong to fight all side effects of chemo/radio
I must be strong to fight watever cancer cells i have in my body.


to all my readers
do not be discouraged by small hiccups in life..
wat can be as bad as contracting cancer..