sec sch buddies

met up with carol, val, JY..
nice to chit chit chat chat..

JY is pregnant again...
val got new sweet bf deliver her ice cream out of nowhere..
n she's super happy...
幸福小女人!
so sweet!

quotas

me: "dear wat time u home? i need to go marketing.. alot things to buy.. very heavy"

so we went NTUC mkting..
carried heavy stuffs home..

awhile later at home..

me: "dear help me hang clothes..."
me: "dear.. throw rubbish"
me: "dear help me keep the charges...."
me: "dear help me..."

dear: "pls pls.. i've reached my housework quotas for today..."

me: "*_*"

tmr quota reset k..
haha...
<3 <3
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so fast.. our wedding anniversary 3/1..
5 yrs into marriage..
9 yrs into pa-tor-ing..
still sweet n going strong!
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went back to church again last sun..
will continue to go church every sun..
im happy..

pottery 22/12/10... breakfast 23/12/10... x'mas

finally start to meet my beloved frs..

before my operation, we went do pottery for yx birthday..

this is the part 1 pic..

unpainted

we met up to paint the pottery..

hy n zp cant make it, so dear join in to help out..

mine is the extreme left..

i get tired fast..

so we paint for 1 hr, and after painting,

me n dear leave 1st, cos im v tired..

the colour looks pastel..

but after its been heated,

it'll be darker...

we need to go back again to collect..

but yx will go collect instead liao..

no need we all go.

lifen's

zp's but lifen paint it..

yx's..

jus the 4 of us..

hy's but dear paint it..

not bad hor..

distinctive colours..

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today went Prive w xy n vette for breakfast..

its an atas place..

located at marina keppel bay..

got yacht..

its my 1st time there..

im like "wah wah wah"..

cos i only know One deg 15, didnt know got another place for yacht..

my Prive Ultimate Breakfast..

quite nice..

cost abt $20++.

dear's big ben..

i think its nicer than coffeebeans's..

more expensive too la..

abt $15++.. 

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today is x'mas eve..

only me n dear..

tmr x'mas day im going church party with 大姑 n 2姑..

21/12/10 end of suffer

Am much better now.
Anus cut pain left 10%.
Stil left 1 small cut, but very bearable la..

Sat stay overnite @ ah ma hse.
Love being there..

Today went for appt liao.
Got close case :)
So far strength to talk is ok.
Think hav energy for 1 client/ 1 activity per day.

A fr told me I shd hav a "full stop" entry regarding my cancer n implications etc..

So this shall be it..
Nxt entry shd be "happyjomei" activity liao

Bye bye cancer n all sufferings!!

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15/12/10

Anus cut pain is 10-20% only.
Am glad tat pain is greatly reduced.
But today seems to be more pain.
Its so confusing, yest seems better, today seems more pain. Sigh..

Was out to plaza sing yest to run some errand. Thot I've fully recovered, even put facebk tat I can start meeting frs.

But not really ah..
Out 4hrs I start to get v tired.
Stand 15-20min, need to sit down rest.
Also v scared to go out cos scared suddenly stomach n need to pass motion.
I'm scared of poo outside cos of the anus pain. @ home at least more comfy n got all the antiseptic n cream to apply.

I still can't find back the happy me yet.
But I'm not so down now la..
Shd be improving ba..
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10/12/10 antiseptic

Yesterday mum-law let me try a liquid antiseptic she always use for cuts, say it v gd.

So yest I apply few times, today also apply.

Amazingly, although "sok sok", my anus cut pain reduce 50-60% when poo!!

Can also feel its healing!

Its better than doc medicine!

Thank god!

Shd have use earlier.

and its cheaper than see doc!

Jus now ah ma call me, she sound sad to know my anus cut pain, I'm so 心痛 tat ah ma stil hav to worry abt me.

also hope that my strength/energy recover soon.

so i can start working..

my mood so far so so..

not really happy yet..

7/12/10 finish all treatment

Today is last day of radiotheraphy.
also marks the end of all treatments.
Doc say life is back to normal now.

I shd b jumping w joy, but I dun feel any happiness..
Duno why..

Is it my mood not back yet?
Is it cos anus cut still not recover, so I can't be fully happy? Since its still very painful when pee/poo..
Is it tat I'm not a happy girl anymore?
Have I change to be a pessimistic person now?

I kinda feel lost too..
For past 7 wks, I wake up, take lunch, then go radio, which at least makes me go out of hse everyday.
Now tat I dun need to go radio, wat shd I do everyday?
I dun wana go back work 1st cos anus not recover, n not much energy/strength to talk/be active yet..
Feel tired easily.

I've got a lot of work backlog though.

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1/12/10 - every little thing they do

Every little thing gugu n dear do make me v touched.

Few days ago, 2 gu sms me...

"知道你很辛苦，但希望你坚持下去。在婆婆还没有倒下不起之前，你无论如何都不能放弃活着。姑姑很少求你，但这次要求你忍痛留着小命，将来陪我一起跟婆婆说再见，然后好好跟爱你的Smith生活，跟姑姑旅行…

I knew I need to pick myself up.

Jus now dear help me apply medicine @ anus.
He has to insert finger into my anus.
Its been tough for a big boy to do such meticulous nursing chores.
Last time he help me change the urine tube dressing, clean/bathe me, now he goto insert finger for me, n he's so gentle when doing it.
Its not ez task for dear too..

I thank them for everything they do.
I'm slowly getting better..
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